Peace with Myself.

Two "to-do-lists," a pang of guilt, and a mission. Today is the first day (in a long time) that i did not have work or class. Thanks to Martin Luther King Junior of course! My friend and I pretended it was the new year all over again. A chance to start over on our New Year's Resolutions (that of course, we have not kept). But this was no drastic or spectacular day. It was a day of studying, errands and chores. A day I want to pass, and somehow a day I want to hold onto and remain in forever. Today I remembered, it's my life. My life does not belong to my work or pleasing my boss, it does not belong to my professors or my exams, and it definitely does not belong to guilt (or Satan, if you will). It is my life. Though embarrassing mistakes I will make, hours I will waste, accomplishments I will achieve (even if it is just crossing one more thing off my list)... I cannot lose me to the world. I don't need to explain (though venting in the form of blog does help - or so we believe), I don't need to continually rewrite the past over and over in my head, I don't need to succumb to guilt, and I certainly don't need lose any more sleep over insignificant things! All I need is to remember who I am and who I was created to be; that is enough.